Depression
At times you feel so desperate; you don’t know what you will do
Is there anyone out there who feels the way you do?
What about tomorrow? Will it be a better day?
Will you deal with all the obstacles in your way?
The troubled mind, this world of fear,
People listen, but do they really hear?
The tensed up muscles, the fight to survive,
The desperate feeling; for an ordinary life
The aching heart, the sickness inside
Life is such a bumpy ride.
“Are you taking your medication?” The experts say;
“You will get better, I promise you, one day”
Then they go home, and they tuck up in bed,
While you’ve still all these problems going round in your head.
It’s not death you fear; it’s life itself
Will anyone want this reject left on the shelf?
You become a prisoner in your home,
Like an animal in a cage
You feel emptiness in your heart,
And your head’s full of rage.
Panic sets in when you go to bed at night,
Leaving you feeling full of fright
Tomorrow might not be as bad anyway
Each day seems the same, seven days a week
You feel so emotionally drained and bleak
You’re so tired in the morning from a stressful night
From nightmares you have had that have given you a fright
You could put your head through the window
Or end it all there
Would anyone miss you?
Would anyone care?
I don’t want money, fortune or fame;
I just want to be normal again.
I want to cope better, just like before,
And be rid of this illness forever more.
Each day is a challenge; each day is new,
One day I will be happy just like you.
Determination is the key to success,
Why should we settle for anything less?
I know I will get better one day,
Taking on new challenges on the way
That tunnel that was dark, with no light in sight
One day will shine so bright
If anyone out there feels like I do,
It’s only determination that carries you through.
The will to get better and our bodies to mend
To get to like ourselves again,
And become our own best friend.
Sylvia Thomas, Sheffield